feeling sad and lonely

Car camping is comfortable and streamable via Starlink; tomorrow he moves to a five-night campsite with toilets and showers. Income is £350 from YouTube; he targets £500, works seven days, and is reducing overdraft before repaying his mother. Three dates went nowhere; he remains lonely, unsure about Spanish girl, and admits complacency and insensitivity helped cause the breakup.

Insight grows, but loneliness still drives secrecy, dating fixation, and renewed streaming.