everything in my life has failed...

On Sunday he visited Devon’s Kit Hill alone, walked four hours, felt peaceful, and planned weekly sightseeing without a girlfriend. Stop-loss changes and revenge trades cut his account from roughly £9 to £5, a 30% loss; he admitted poor discipline. YouTube earned $1,200 by April 21, but overdraft and £4,800 Amazon debt persist; he considers returning to Thailand for winter.

Autonomy feels peaceful, yet nostalgia and debt revive his work-relationship-escape cycle.