everything has failed i lost it all...

He restarted two streams against suspected botting; viewers fell from nearly 20,000 to 5,000, then returned near 30,000. Two leveraged shorts earned £4–£5 after an all-day wait; he awaits YouTube money and hopes investments reach £5,000 for debts. He considers republishing Sunny breakup/Japan streams after 1.5 months without police contact, admitting streaming and Discord repeatedly displaced partners.

Autonomy remains central: he favors YouTube and trading over driving despite hunger, debt, and relationship fallout.