Spending Thanksgiving Alone Because I'm Sad And Lonely

During a Thanksgiving livestream alone in Rotterdam, unstable Wi-Fi forced paid mobile data; upstairs family noise remained a major irritant. Crypto's ~$800 gains vanished overnight; he exited with about $50, considered selling 12.7 Tesla shares, and reported £4,600 income this month. He planned Sweden with Mila, weighed iPhone 12 versus MacBook, and described declining viewers plus a recurring loneliness-autonomy cycle.

Streaming and speculative trading provide companionship and purpose, yet reinforce isolation and instability.