life updates - sad and alone

He rejects Tesla purchase after calculating $5,000 deposit, $2,800 insurance, and £450 monthly costs; plans renting only when needed. He debates rental property versus stocks, but mortgage application was rejected; AI-created CVs led him to apply for warehouse work. He feels guilty about ending his Thai relationship, remains bored in England, and directs roughly $1,300 income toward credit-card debt.

Novelty spending is giving way to debt repayment and asset fantasies, but uncertainty and reluctance to work persist.