i wasted my life...

Revisited the pet shop where he bought three goldfish during marriage, recalling the ¥20,000 aquarium and deleting its 11–15K-view vlog. The Itami stream endured app crashes, 42°C phone overheating, cold and knee/foot strain; he ate poor KFC and logged 32,000 steps. He acknowledged deleting wholesome vlogs and manufacturing drama; declining views and May income now make home, savings and his relationship priorities.

Nostalgia for 2018–19 is yielding to acceptance that drama, travel and livestreaming no longer sustain him.