She wasnt what i expected...

On 7 October, he met Tomoko and immediately felt no attraction, despite finding her kind and easy to be around. He disclosed wanting sex without a relationship; she agreed, they had sex, took photos, walked around, then hugged and parted. He plans to remain in Japan, date others, make guesthouse friends, livestream, and reconsider his plans instead of going home.

He recognizes repeated online idealization collapsing into in-person disappointment, followed by remorse.