happy Christmas everyone

Severe illness continued through Boxing Day: fever eased, but coughing, congestion, dizziness and fatigue reduced Christmas to roughly five hours. Chihiro unexpectedly sent Merry Christmas despite reporting him; he found the contact confusing and remained fearful about returning to Japan. He still owed about £2,800, awaited £528 YouTube income, considered selling stocks, and planned 2025 debt repayment while rebuilding investments.

Illness amplified longstanding loneliness, financial anxiety, nostalgia, and escape-oriented thinking while he prioritised domestic stability.