I wasted my 20s...

Approaching 35, he feels he wasted his 20s: no property, successful business, automobile, or durable career foundation. Repeated Japan trips centred on temporary relationships and leisure; Japanese fluency remains unused because it supports neither work nor residence. He recognizes his present-focused, lone-wolf lifestyle lacks balance and stability, yet expects to repeat the same bored Japan routine.

Self-awareness intensifies, but resignation and magical thinking still replace concrete plans for change.