feeling sad today ：(

Views abruptly fell from 10–15K to 1–4K; he fears shadow-banning, channel collapse, and ending his seven-year no-job streak. George cancelled their Thailand meeting, citing expense and leaving him on read; Daniel felt rejected after isolation and Ice’s toxic encounter. He submitted Japan evidence to HMRC, seeking 2019 tax relief and installments, while weighing UK Christmas against Thailand’s visa uncertainty.

Decline, grief, isolation, and relationship uncertainty push him toward authenticity, though escape fantasies persist.