alone today feeling bored

A risky AMC swing trade recovered roughly £300–£400, but overall investments remain about £10,000 down, reinforcing his sense of gambling. He admits his channel has been largely fabricated since 2017; a sincere video stalled near 2,800 views, prompting more fake drama. He reports depression and isolation, saying viewers should be glad he has not killed himself; future relationships should remain private.

He sees oversharing damaging relationships but still treats fake toxicity as his best route to attention.