I'm bored of life and suck at everything

Since January, he cycled through gym, cycling, painting, Thai study, and games, abandoning most within weeks when effort became difficult. He feels empty and directionless, fearing decades of boredom; caring for baby shrimp is his clearest current fulfillment. YouTube, once a passion and expected route to a million subscribers, now feels unrewarding because low views dominate his motivation.

The transcript extends his recurring cycle of novelty, frustration, and abandonment across hobbies, language study, games, and YouTube.