Reacting to my failure in life - Lazy and no Motivation

Revisiting age-27 despair, he recalls living with parents, hating petrol-station work, and spending £3,000 on Japan instead of studying. At 34, he lives in Thailand, has a girlfriend and apartment, supports himself, and studies Thai— an unimaginable change. He advises persistent experimentation and best effort, yet admits he still abandons difficult goals and worries YouTube will not last.

His material circumstances improved dramatically, but motivation and self-judged inadequacy remain strikingly continuous.