my life is getting worse and worse...

Five months of lockdown stagnation, ghosted women, declining views, and blocked Japan travel leave him bored, stressed, and depressed. He reports £10,000 stock losses (£22,000 including gains), invests another £2,000, and says coworkers and his boss praise his new retail job. He considers visiting an LA woman for vlogs and adult-content promotion after vaccination, while prioritizing a London meeting and awaiting Japan’s reopening.

He still equates partnership, travel, and monetized intimacy with purpose, despite repeating instability, regret, and stalled plans.