I feel lonely and desperate

He prepared for a Japan Cupid acquaintance’s planned overnight movie visit by cleaning and spending about $40 on bedding and a towel. She cancelled for work and a 4 a.m. shift, suggesting Friday; he doubts it will happen and hides his anger. He says loneliness requires intimacy, describes his girlfriend relationship as boring with mediocre sex, and links it to infidelity.

This continues his recurring pattern of sexual idealization temporarily relieving loneliness, followed by disappointment and instability.