My first girlfriend - I couldn't get it in

After Sayaka’s breakup, he dated Sayuri online and rushed to meet her in Japan two months later, travelling alone. He found her appearance, height, seriousness, limited availability, and Disneyland trip disappointing; repeated conflicts exposed immaturity and mismatched expectations. Sex repeatedly failed; he later had sex with a Korean housemate, while Sayuri blocked him amid suspected mutual infidelity.

Romantic idealisation again collapsed into disappointment, avoidance, betrayal, and rapid transfer of attachment.