I may have impregnated my girlfriend

After about 41 instances of unprotected sex, he worries his girlfriend may be pregnant but has no confirmation. He would accept fatherhood, marry her, move to Japan, and seek English-teaching work to support the family. He questions his fertility after earlier unprotected sex produced no pregnancies, citing uncertainty about contraception and testicular size.

Idealisation quickly expands into possible parenthood, while uncertainty persists through avoiding direct contraception questions.