Racial Identity - Do I see myself as White or Asian

He identifies more with his Asian side, explaining that childhood alienation and travel to Japan sought a place of belonging. Britain and Asia alike leave him visibly and culturally in-between; Japan’s conformity, work ethic, and foreigner status also feel alien. He links mixed-race appearance and school bullying to low self-esteem, low confidence, and social anxiety, imagining homeschooling a bullied future child.

His search for belonging shifts toward accepting permanent in-betweenness while defending individuality.