i made a massive mistake...

He rejects returning to his mother in July, cites a rolling lease, and commits to Devon independence; delivery work now yields roughly £30–£48 daily. Facing about £1,900 overdraft in May, he prioritizes a £5,000–£10,000 safety fund over debt repayment and projects positive cash flow by June. He plans only leveraged SPY swing trades, admits moving stop-losses causes large losses, while loneliness prompts a year of celibacy but flirtation and possible £500 Canada travel.

Independence is strengthening, but speculative finance and unmet companionship needs continue destabilizing his plans.