i feel lost in life

At 35, living with his mother, unemployed, single, £13,000 in debt, and unsure what meaningful future direction remains. He abandons Tesla/Uber, Amazon delivery, and car-flipping ideas over financial risk; any new pursuit must be cheap, engaging, and financially useful. Past dreams in art, translation, games, investing, driving, and banjo faded; tidying now helps, while he demonstrates making a bacon sandwich.

He craves purposeful challenge but increasingly retreats from risk, uncertainty, and wasted effort.