15 September 2020

I'm getting old and I dont have much time left

15 September 2020 · 13:41

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Summary

At an amusement park, a spinning jump ride knocked him down; a lower-back injury caused three days of pain. At 31, white hairs, laugh lines, facial changes, and camera detail make aging and losing his youthful identity frightening. He reflects on mortality, limited days, childhood expectations of never growing up, and whether enjoying Fortnite makes time wasted.

Insight

A playful, avoidance-oriented routine is increasingly confronted by bodily aging and existential awareness.