1000 subscriber special Q&A video!

In the 1,000-subscriber Q&A, he says YouTube reduced filming anxiety and now hopes channel, translation, artwork replace petrol-station work. He prefers Japan, imagines living in both countries, reports persistent social anxiety, and weighs about 44kg after abandoning weight-gain efforts. Responding to a hostile essay, he defends job and online relationships, rejects conformity, admits limited character growth, and remains uncertain.

YouTube converts isolation into optimism, but social anxiety and unstable direction still constrain his ambitions.