why my life has made no progress in 15 years

At 36, he says 15 years since 2010 brought little progress beyond driving, leaving him feeling comparable to a school-leaver. He lists mediocre Japanese, forgotten coding, nonprofessional drawing, and YouTube, with no current skill feeling reliably monetizable. Five years of investing produced about $20,000 in losses and only a few thousand recovered; he blames impatience and poor self-control.

The transcript shows a recurring cycle of initial interest, boredom, abandonment, and harsh self- judgment.