my life is in ruins...my plan to fix it

Every banned him without explanation; he estimates only £600–£700 monthly net and pivots toward OnlyFans and YouTube. June stock sale targets £4,700 card clearance before 30% APR; subsequent savings rebuild assets while repaying Mum over two years. He nostalgically misses Faster and Thailand, regrets leaving a reliable partner, yet admits sexual novelty repeatedly outweighed loyalty and stability.

Autonomy remains his priority, but debt, volatile trading, lost work, and loneliness keep stability conditional.