Why i Hated my Gay Voice

Revisiting his 2015 PewDiePie video, he calls it his most embarrassing because of his former voice and speech errors. He links his former soft, awkward speech to bullying, isolation, little practice, and days speaking only five to ten words. YouTube improved his speaking and became his job, yet anxiety persists: he feels judged as quiet offline and excessive online.

A speaking career partially reverses isolation, but fear of judgment still drives both withdrawal and oversharing.