life update

Subscribers fell to 111,933; demonetized streams reduce income toward $400–$500, prompting him to abandon hate-bait for genuine content. Nearly one year with his Thai girlfriend; UK Christmas travel depends on visa extensions, her visa, and unresolved tax calculations. Year-long diarrhea, weight loss, and low mood persist; Thai classes feel pointless after five skipped days, while motivation fades.

Quick attention-seeking replaces sustained effort; he recognizes its role in his channel’s decline.