why i didn’t make any friends yet (at age 34)

After nearly two months, he avoids Thai classmates, fearing they will leave; he envies their friendships but acknowledges deliberate isolation. A streamer-community confrontation followed harsh Discord comments about a friend; he recognizes repeating an earlier mistake that ended potential friendship. His searchable history and refusal to stop criticizing people make him conclude friendship requires secrecy; he gives up.

He turns anticipated departures and reputational risk into self-protective isolation, despite envy of others’ connections.