My life struggle with having Autism

He remains unsure whether Asperger’s differs from autism, while describing lifelong alienation, bullying, and confusion over ordinary social conventions. YouTube exposure brought conflict: expecting validation for strong opinions, he received ridicule and adopted deliberate villainy around late 2018. Father, ex-wife, and girlfriend repeatedly suggest autism; he feels labeled, avoids people and opinions, and recounts quitting over workplace-method conflicts.

Self-awareness grows, but recurring breakdowns remain framed as others’ inability to understand him.