packing for germany - getting ready to leave

He flies Thursday at 8:30 PM to Germany to meet a 24-year-old Instagram contact; one hotel night is booked, Airbnb uncertain. He rejects Japan and reconciliation, dismisses his wife’s lawsuit, and presents Germany as escape from marriage and family conflict. Amid grief and loneliness, he mentions jumping in front of a train; poor internet and low views worsen depression.

Escape and novelty temporarily outweigh grief, while nostalgia reveals ambivalence about abandoning marriage and home.