The saddest day of my life

On the funeral day, he wears a patterned black jumper, black jeans and grey hoodie because he lacks formal clothing. With windy, potentially rainy weather, he showers and waits from 10 a.m. for funeral staff arriving at 2 p.m. His father's body will be returned before the family travels together to the crematorium; four weeks later, the funeral feels strange.

Time has normalized his grief somewhat, but the funeral reactivates the unreality of his father's death.